memento
what's the difference between
"i can't remember to forget you"
and
"i can't forget to remember you"
i just watched memento.. not bad, not as confusing as 21 grams but accordingly, the pay off wasn't as good.. before the show ended we were like, this better not turn out to be something dumb.. like the innkeeper killed the wife or something.. or maybe he killed her himself. whoops.. ok yeah he did. but the story concept n style was ok la. it's about a guy who's wife is dead n he's looking for the guy who killed her. but he has short term memory loss so he can't remember more than a few minutes at a time.. so he has stuff tatooed all over his body, clues for him to find the John G. who killed her.. pacing could've been tighter but we loved the funny bits.. when we were not oggling guy ritchie's sculpted bod.. lols. ok this is in no way a rundown of the show, i jus wana remember it for myself, u noe in case i have STML next time.
STML.. short term memory loss.. 'it's not amnesia, i can't make new memories.. it just sorts of fade away. if i talk to you too long i can't remember why we started.. afterwards i won't remember i ever met you' interesting.. so this is what it really means.. not that i knew it when we used to claim 'aiya i can't study one la, i got short term memory..'
but know what's the scary bit? i think i've gone through this before.. in the memento style of it.. but how would you know you've forgotten something if you can't remember what you forgot.. or if you forgot that you forgot.. so how did i know? i remember forgetting.. i remember not remembering what happened, or why i did what i did, said what i said.. 'severe alcoholism is one of the causes of short term memory loss'.. oh so THAT'S what happened.. kidding. -_-+
but it was a bad time.. a bad bad time.. i remember a dreamcatcher spinning in a wind.. but there was no wind.. i remember waking up in strange bed.. i remember telling an almost stranger all my troubles.. i remember taking her guitar and fiddling.. strumming, strum, strum.. i remember a time when the memories were dark and desperate and i hid away from them and if i managed to forget, just for a moment, that i remembered my memories, i counted myself blessed.. and then there came a time when i really forgot.. when i couldn't help forgetting.. i lost entire chunks of seconds, minutes, half a day.. like someone took a duster and erased words in the middle of a sentence, and replaced it with meaningless scribbles.. pictures with stick men..
well.. that's a chapter i dun wana look at too closely anytime soon.. though as with all completely unpleasant memories it has a habit of sneaking up on you when u least expect it.. sly and mean as a pinch on the bum. i'd be looking in the mirror and suddenly get a flashback YOU DID THIS YOU SAID THIS YOU DID THAT HOW COULD YOU YOU YOU and i'd half reel back from the shock of it, then blink and shake off the bad times like a bad scent.
ok all this has absolutely NO purpose except im sleepy and im rambling.
hopeless
"i can't remember to forget you"
and
"i can't forget to remember you"
i just watched memento.. not bad, not as confusing as 21 grams but accordingly, the pay off wasn't as good.. before the show ended we were like, this better not turn out to be something dumb.. like the innkeeper killed the wife or something.. or maybe he killed her himself. whoops.. ok yeah he did. but the story concept n style was ok la. it's about a guy who's wife is dead n he's looking for the guy who killed her. but he has short term memory loss so he can't remember more than a few minutes at a time.. so he has stuff tatooed all over his body, clues for him to find the John G. who killed her.. pacing could've been tighter but we loved the funny bits.. when we were not oggling guy ritchie's sculpted bod.. lols. ok this is in no way a rundown of the show, i jus wana remember it for myself, u noe in case i have STML next time.
STML.. short term memory loss.. 'it's not amnesia, i can't make new memories.. it just sorts of fade away. if i talk to you too long i can't remember why we started.. afterwards i won't remember i ever met you' interesting.. so this is what it really means.. not that i knew it when we used to claim 'aiya i can't study one la, i got short term memory..'
but know what's the scary bit? i think i've gone through this before.. in the memento style of it.. but how would you know you've forgotten something if you can't remember what you forgot.. or if you forgot that you forgot.. so how did i know? i remember forgetting.. i remember not remembering what happened, or why i did what i did, said what i said.. 'severe alcoholism is one of the causes of short term memory loss'.. oh so THAT'S what happened.. kidding. -_-+
but it was a bad time.. a bad bad time.. i remember a dreamcatcher spinning in a wind.. but there was no wind.. i remember waking up in strange bed.. i remember telling an almost stranger all my troubles.. i remember taking her guitar and fiddling.. strumming, strum, strum.. i remember a time when the memories were dark and desperate and i hid away from them and if i managed to forget, just for a moment, that i remembered my memories, i counted myself blessed.. and then there came a time when i really forgot.. when i couldn't help forgetting.. i lost entire chunks of seconds, minutes, half a day.. like someone took a duster and erased words in the middle of a sentence, and replaced it with meaningless scribbles.. pictures with stick men..
well.. that's a chapter i dun wana look at too closely anytime soon.. though as with all completely unpleasant memories it has a habit of sneaking up on you when u least expect it.. sly and mean as a pinch on the bum. i'd be looking in the mirror and suddenly get a flashback YOU DID THIS YOU SAID THIS YOU DID THAT HOW COULD YOU YOU YOU and i'd half reel back from the shock of it, then blink and shake off the bad times like a bad scent.
ok all this has absolutely NO purpose except im sleepy and im rambling.
hopeless
posted by daa | 12:18 am
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