fortune favours the bold
so if ur brave, u get lucky. capisce? i dunno if i agree. what about all the times i'm not brave? wait, am i even brave to start with? so, maybe not. so do i have continual bad luck? or does fortune not mean luck in this case, but fortune as in FORTUNE? money? oh. is that why im always broke?? ... ?! well, never mind.
in the instance of not being able to write about the things i want to write about, i am writing whatever comes to the top of my head, because i can, and because i am trying not to think about the things i don't want to think about but which i can't help thinking about because i can't talk about it so i think about it but i don't want to.
i just failed sentence construction, didn't i. once, in lit class, a teacher returned my essay scribbling that i should ask my GP teacher for help because obviously i have a problem constructing sentences. i was so mad, i felt like punching him. how dare he pronounce me illiterate (or whatever u call it) after reading a two page essay which i dumped out in twenty minutes during the lecture before his class? asshole.
maybe he read my blog entries when i forgot fullstops in favour of getting whatever it is i want to say out of the way. not that im always successful there either. hmm.
i watched eye for a guy finale part 1 just now. yes, i have been unashamedly following each n every episode as much as i could, even when i was working nite shift (yes u read 'was' more about that later). i went to the coffee machine above which there's a tv and i stood there for ten mins delightedly watching howard profess his feelings for denise. it was sooooo sweet.. yeah im a sucker but i was honestly taken in by his boyish charm. yup i prefer boyz2men. har har. anyway.. i've been all for howard since day one, i jus wish he's taller, else i think he's e perfect guy for denise.. heck, for ME! muaaaahahaha.. haaha.. haa. ha.
erm. ok. u didn't see that.
but but but.. after their perfect fairytale date wolfgang budges in and practically suffocates denise with a surprise kiss.. god.. so scary.. like being pounced on. but it did seem like their kiss was more like a reaL kiss.. with howard it was all sweet and youngish and sec sch crush-ish. aww. sweet but.. will D go for e passion? e 'perfect'ness of wolfie? question is.. does she want a man or a boy? sigh. what a stroke of luck for the lady, two perfect guys to choose from for a whirlwind trip. and being gorgeous to boot. if i didn't like her i'd hate her.
well.. wolfgang was 'bold' when he pounced on denise.. howard was 'bold' when he declared his feelings.. howard jus seems so much more sincere than wolf, who seems too smooth and suave and makes me imagine he's actually a sheep.. wolf in sheep's clothing, geddit, har har. ok, somebody slap me.
but i don't envy denise having to choose.. she seemed genuinely affected at the end.. wobbly bottom lip and shining teary eyes to boot.. if it wasn't genuine, she's a helluva good actress. well, i just hope the show has a happy ending.. go, howie! haha.
so who will fortune favour? tune in next week in Eye for a Guy 2, Wednesday, 10 p.m. Season finale part 2! lols free publicity for channel 5.
ok, i've addressed none of the topics that are so screwing me up, but writing fluff abt a tv show has cheered me up some. so even if it was pointless, it worked. so far, so good.
sobs. so FAR no good. how do u establish bonds over hundrends and thousands of kilometres? how do u noe what the other person is doing? thinking? feeling? do i even know what i want? what am i getting into? is there even anything to get into? im so confused. but this feels right. but it's all so hopeless at the same time. what in the world do i hope will come out of this? we are worlds apart. literally. what am i going to do???? be bold and wait for fortune? be circumspect and rational and forget about it?? argh.. i hate this.
oh. i did talk about what im thinking about. it's not all but the rest i definitely can't talk about. so never mind.
newsflash - i have finished my project and contract for ascent media. until yesterday, i didn't even know i was on contract. but they still have a lot of work to do. just short of machines. so i am put on hold for when they will next call me, on short notice. i hate that. should i go find a real job now? this is so uncertain. i know i kept saying that i wouldn't do this job for long. but heck, barely two weeks is a bit too short even for me.
sigh.
ok, i'm done whining now. now i can sleep. i hope. thank you for putting up with me, everybody who has had to put up with me. and the more fool you if you do cos in times like this, it's best to give me a shove and ask me to shut the hell up.
goodnight.
i wish the world was a smaller place. goodnight, u. til tomorrow when we (don't) meet again.
sigh.
in the instance of not being able to write about the things i want to write about, i am writing whatever comes to the top of my head, because i can, and because i am trying not to think about the things i don't want to think about but which i can't help thinking about because i can't talk about it so i think about it but i don't want to.
i just failed sentence construction, didn't i. once, in lit class, a teacher returned my essay scribbling that i should ask my GP teacher for help because obviously i have a problem constructing sentences. i was so mad, i felt like punching him. how dare he pronounce me illiterate (or whatever u call it) after reading a two page essay which i dumped out in twenty minutes during the lecture before his class? asshole.
maybe he read my blog entries when i forgot fullstops in favour of getting whatever it is i want to say out of the way. not that im always successful there either. hmm.
i watched eye for a guy finale part 1 just now. yes, i have been unashamedly following each n every episode as much as i could, even when i was working nite shift (yes u read 'was' more about that later). i went to the coffee machine above which there's a tv and i stood there for ten mins delightedly watching howard profess his feelings for denise. it was sooooo sweet.. yeah im a sucker but i was honestly taken in by his boyish charm. yup i prefer boyz2men. har har. anyway.. i've been all for howard since day one, i jus wish he's taller, else i think he's e perfect guy for denise.. heck, for ME! muaaaahahaha.. haaha.. haa. ha.
erm. ok. u didn't see that.
but but but.. after their perfect fairytale date wolfgang budges in and practically suffocates denise with a surprise kiss.. god.. so scary.. like being pounced on. but it did seem like their kiss was more like a reaL kiss.. with howard it was all sweet and youngish and sec sch crush-ish. aww. sweet but.. will D go for e passion? e 'perfect'ness of wolfie? question is.. does she want a man or a boy? sigh. what a stroke of luck for the lady, two perfect guys to choose from for a whirlwind trip. and being gorgeous to boot. if i didn't like her i'd hate her.
well.. wolfgang was 'bold' when he pounced on denise.. howard was 'bold' when he declared his feelings.. howard jus seems so much more sincere than wolf, who seems too smooth and suave and makes me imagine he's actually a sheep.. wolf in sheep's clothing, geddit, har har. ok, somebody slap me.
but i don't envy denise having to choose.. she seemed genuinely affected at the end.. wobbly bottom lip and shining teary eyes to boot.. if it wasn't genuine, she's a helluva good actress. well, i just hope the show has a happy ending.. go, howie! haha.
so who will fortune favour? tune in next week in Eye for a Guy 2, Wednesday, 10 p.m. Season finale part 2! lols free publicity for channel 5.
ok, i've addressed none of the topics that are so screwing me up, but writing fluff abt a tv show has cheered me up some. so even if it was pointless, it worked. so far, so good.
sobs. so FAR no good. how do u establish bonds over hundrends and thousands of kilometres? how do u noe what the other person is doing? thinking? feeling? do i even know what i want? what am i getting into? is there even anything to get into? im so confused. but this feels right. but it's all so hopeless at the same time. what in the world do i hope will come out of this? we are worlds apart. literally. what am i going to do???? be bold and wait for fortune? be circumspect and rational and forget about it?? argh.. i hate this.
oh. i did talk about what im thinking about. it's not all but the rest i definitely can't talk about. so never mind.
newsflash - i have finished my project and contract for ascent media. until yesterday, i didn't even know i was on contract. but they still have a lot of work to do. just short of machines. so i am put on hold for when they will next call me, on short notice. i hate that. should i go find a real job now? this is so uncertain. i know i kept saying that i wouldn't do this job for long. but heck, barely two weeks is a bit too short even for me.
sigh.
ok, i'm done whining now. now i can sleep. i hope. thank you for putting up with me, everybody who has had to put up with me. and the more fool you if you do cos in times like this, it's best to give me a shove and ask me to shut the hell up.
goodnight.
i wish the world was a smaller place. goodnight, u. til tomorrow when we (don't) meet again.
sigh.
posted by daa | 11:24 pm
3 Comments:
oh man! i thought the exact same thing when I was watching eye for a guy.... i don't think anyone knows i watch it tho... heehee.. i keep it hush.
dear sweet howard and his sec sch kiss... i don't think it's gonna end well for him.. sigh.
i shall contact you on msn to discuss the finale.
haha... nice free publicity for channel 5! lol... i think howard would win tho...
from the few episodes i caught before... i really think so...
u win !!! =P
hah! so there are other closet fans out there! yeah! haha.. tonite is the big nite.. i cant wait.. btw i still duno who u r, efag2 fan.. n ivanny, yeah i think howie has a gd chance but wolfgang's a snake! neva noe wat mite happen.. stay tuned tonite, 10 pm, ch 5! haha..
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