sacrilege is sacred rage

there has been a spate of discussion on religion on cisoux's blog.
it affected me more than i like to think.
odd things have also been happening.
like i wasn't looking for answers but i just happened on a quote in the quran that addressed exactly how i felt about the issue. you can read it here.

and after i posted my comment. i randomly added songs to my playlist. and i accidentally added a song of my sister's. and it so struck me as a perfect summary of what's going on that it's freaky.

i guess God really moves in mysterious ways. especially when you start questioning His ways.

Here is the song. Interprete as u like.

Will You Hate Me

You smile in the two way mirror of my eyes
I put on my faith like i wear a disguise
You can't see my soul see the life that i live
Show you the mask of the best i can give
I hear you afraid like a child
Behind the truth of my thoughts
That clutter my mind
What if you knew about all that i do
The things that i think
The need that is true

Would you call me a hypocrite call me a liar
Would you curse out my name would damn me to fire
Would you know what to say or would you just walk away
Afraid, the me i've tried to hide..
Would too closely resemble the truth
Of you that lies inside

I've been looking for answers since becoming adult
Not looking for dog not to live like acolt
I've been looking to live
I've been living to find
Freedom from cages that live in my mind

Would you call me a hypocrite call me a liar
Would you curse out my name would damn me to fire
Would you know what to say or would you just walk away
Afraid, the me i've tried to hide..
Would too closely resemble the truth
Of you that lies inside

Will i scare you upset you frustrate you irate you
Challenge your lifestyle or weaken your trust
Or will you see my effort my passion sincerity
Will you see just a little of yourself in me
Will you take off your masks so we can both be free

Would you call me a hypocrite call me a liar
Would you curse out my name would damn me to fire
Would you know what to say or would you just walk away
Afraid, the me i've tried to hide..
Would too closely resemble the truth
Of you that lies inside

spamshit

wtf?!

i received this as a comment on my trip post. See below:-

Melissa K. W. said...
Hi,

I'm sorry for being intrusive in to your blog. But I am Melissa and I am a mother of two that is just trying to get out of an incredible financial debt. See my hubby is away in Iraq trying to protect this great country that we live in, and I am at home with our two kids telling bill collectors please be patiant. When my husband returns from war we will beable to catch up on our payments. We have already had are 2001 Ford repossessed from the bank, and are now down to a 83 buick that is rusted from front to back and the heater don't work, and tire tax is due in November.

I'm not asking for your pitty because we got our ownselfs into this mess but we would love you and thank you in our prayers if you would just keep this link on your blog for others to view.

God Bless You.

Melissa K. W.
To see my family view this page. My Family

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7:45 PM

omg
What e hell is wrong with these people?! Can't they just bloody leave netters alone?! I can block junk mail but how to block junk comments?!

And just today at work, SJ came up and asked me, "How can u get across a message to a large number of pple in the shortest amount of time?"
Quick as as pat i said, "Spam."

Never knew being right could feel so ironic.